Earlier tonight, I read a blog post by one of my favorite bloggers. He seems to know what he’s talking about and he talks about said things with a lot of decency and respect, which I appreciate since it seems so rare (many people just seem to spew words onto the internet without a care).
Although it was not the moral of the particular post, what I remember most from it is that series are not the way to start for ‘entering writers’. Trying to make a name for yourself with a series is unlikely since readers might not want to commit to you. I don’t completely understand that myself since I have picked up a series now and then from people who were then starting writers (granted they were successful afterwards).
Yet the rational side of me understands. The world is abundant with books and movies and other sources of entertainment and material to read. Why would a reader sit down and read three or four of your books? Or why would they attempt to read one by someone they do not know and risk not enjoying it? Or, perhaps they are not willing to pick it up at all since they are not sure of your writing? Perhaps they are not ready to be loyal and wait for that next book to arrive. Perhaps all of the above occur. I can understand.
In conclusion to that post, I made a decision which later I retracted. I tried to write about that decision and it hurt my heart to its depths so I could not commit to it.
I had decided to put Nivitera’s Promise on hold so I could write a novel on its own first so I could try to make a name using that novel. But I could not do that to my own beating heart and I also decided that I would be an enormous phony in doing so.
Why step away from a project that has my heart to come up with something that does not have a single emotion? Why subtract my attention from something that haunts my mind every day? Why abandon, even if for a while, characters that yearn to be heard and to be experienced? Why give all that up to write something I don’t truly want to write? Why write if my heart isn’t in it? A reader would be able to tell, even if I ended up enjoying that story, that I am only using it to find an audience.
So instead I am back where I started but with new-found motivation hat I had lost last month. Nivitera’s Promise is my greatest love; my darling, my dearest. And until it is fully on paper and to my satisfaction, it will not be left alone. And even when written, I will fight for it to earn a place on shelves across the English-speaking nations so it finds its way into the hands of those who it will make smile, laugh and perhaps cry.
This is a story I believe in. This is a story I love. This is a story that has my heart; completely. This is a story that is as close to me as my every other thought. This story is apart of my own beating heart. This is a story that I feel is worth writing. This is a story worth fighting for and thus that is what I will do. Perhaps one day, I can be one of those people who says, “I was told not to start off with a series, but look at me now!” Perhaps it’ll make my dreams come true by being my dreams itself.
May destiny be kind to you.
PS: For any fellow fantasy writers, I highly suggest checking out the blog mentioned; Fantasy Author’s Handbook.